So long.

It's been a month since I've written something here. The reason for it is that I'm basically my only reader & that I don't seem to know yet what I want to do with this blog. I don't want it to turn into a simply diary where I upload my rants - I want it to have some purpose. While I'm on the search for that, I've decided to post something, that has inspired me in many ways lately.
I've watched Inception twice now & I'm listening to the soundtrack right now. I'd been looking forward to the film since I first saw a trailer beginning of the year & I loved it, to say the least, when I finally got to see it in August for the first time. The visuals, the music, the story, the actors (Joseph Gordon-Levitt, yes!!) - it might not be THE greatest film of all times, as I've heard some people call it, but it's definitely a great film. Another masterpiece by Christopher Nolan.

(via)

"You're waiting for a train - a train that will take you far away. You know where you hope the train will take you, but you can't know for sure. But it doesn't matter..."

Until soon. I hope.

Love & fireworks.

Swing Life Away.

Oh yes, I'd really love to sit on one of these swings right now & swing time away. Not life, though. (I took the title off Rise Against's "Swing Life Away".)

In spite of my last exam coming up, an essay waiting to be begun (& to be handed in on Friday) & another paper to be written, I just put together a playlist on iTunes that I labelled "ohSunday!" & am now planning to sit on the bed & read until it's time to order our dinner. Typical Sunday. I cannot motivative myself to do anything, as it seems.

Also, I have been browsing a number of online stores in search of a lomography camera. I really can't decide how to spend my money - or if to spend, at all. It seems to add up, when I start to consider extra lenses, a 35mm-back etc. sigh


Other songs on the playlist:
Tegan and Sara - Are You Ten Years Ago, The Con, Back In Your Head, I Won't Be Left
Ben Kenney - Walking, 18th Avenue, Get Time, Eulogy,
Audioslave - Cochise, Shadow On The Sun, Set It Off
The Temper Trap - Sweet Disposition
Brandon Boyd - The whole "The Wild Trapeze" album
etc. etc.

story of my life.

the boulevard is bustling.
a vast and wrinkled muslin
is pulled over my eyes,
and I know I don’t belong.

there is a noise inside of me,
that bustles asymmetrically.
oh, how have I to balance
those sounds into a song?

it’s time to let your hair down
and give yourself permission.
it takes courage and control,
but you start by letting go. oh.

the city’s an analogy
for things building inside of me .
there’s chaos in this discord,
but still we move along.

the chaos sings of symmetry
and all her words are poetry -
that’s the kind of city,
which i want to belong.

it’s time to let your hair down
and give yourself permission.
it takes courage and control,
but you start by letting go. oh.

oh - i think, i feel, i see,
oh - that this place is not me.
i want to belong,
but, be wild and free.
oh, he who asks,
receives.

it’s time to let your hair down
and give yourself permission.
it takes courage and control,
but you start by letting go. oh.

it’s time to let your hair down
and give yourself permission.
oh, it takes courage and control!
but you start by letting go. oh.

Brandon Boyd / Courage and Control

Thank you, Mr. Boyd, for your wonderful solo record. I've been listening to it on repeat since Saturday afternoon - with some breaks in between. Tiny breaks.

That's it for now. The lyrics stand for themselves & pretty much perfectly sum up how I'm feeling these days. Time to move on.

Long days.

I'm completely exhausted after the last couple of days - & it's not getting better. Exam phase is in full swing & this week was really hard. Tuesday I wrote 2 exams in a row, Thursday a presentation was due, Friday another presentation followed by an exam & a seminar today (on a Saturday!!). Oh yeah, & it's so HOT! I can't sleep properly. Even more fun.

Still, when I came home today, everything was forgotten - Brandon Boyd's solo album "The Wild Trapeze" had finally been delivered. Now I'm happily listening to it the second time in a row. Won't be the last time, I'm sure (today & tomorrow & the day after & all of next week & after that...)

Staying with Incubus: Ben Kenney posted the second song of his new album-to-come "Burn the Tapes" & it's called "Worlds Collide". Wonderful as well. You can find it here.

To bring some colour into my day I made a quick visit at H&M after I got back into the city & bought a HUGE, kinda-turquoise-sparkly ring & a cute gold owl-necklace. Oh yeah, the ring's huge in my opinion. I really hope I can convince myself to wear it outside. It was the last one, so it's kinda small - but I had to buy it, it's so pretty.

Now I'm gonna sit on the bed & watch a movie. Until I fall asleep, I guess.

Too. much. hot.

Yeah, the title is not entirely correct, but who cares, right? I can't even think straight these days, not even to talk about my missing concentration (which I really miss as exams are coming up, two of them tomorrow already ). Temperatures stay around 30°C these days & barely drop lower even at night. There's no moment when I don't sweat & I already took three showers today. On-and-off-headache is another negative side-effect of this incredible heat. Seriously, moderate climate, anyone?

Another sad thing: the FIFA worldcup is over & we didn't win. Boo! We still got bronze, though. I don't really like the fact, that Spain won the cup as I had hoped for the Netherlands to make it. Anyways, despite of that I will really really miss the daily matches. Well, that means less work for my television, I guess.

I went swimming on Friday & it was amazing. We have a bathing ship in Berlin, where there is a pool on top of our river Spree (sounds cool, right?) & it really is a great place to be. It's a great experience to linger in the water & have the river around you. And it's really cheap, too - 3€ for students. At the end of the day it got really crowded though & after 5 hours in the sun, without much shade, we decide to leave.

this is what it looks like in autumn/winter. (via)

Exam time also means that the end of semester is coming up - I can't wait. If everything turns out fine, I'll be back in Sweden in the beginning of August for the first time in too many years. I always missed that country so much, it's like a symbol for my childhood days - we went there for the family summer holidays for many years in a row.

I will try to get some sleep now & learn for my exams tomorrow morning.

Oh happy (Incubus) day!

My Incubus shirt finally arrived! It fits me perfectly & is wonderfully turquoise - I'm in love. I ordered it about a month ago, but didn't want to pay more for faster delivery which meant I had to wait. But: it also meant bigger anticipation & I was so excited to find the parcel in the letterbox today that I ripped it open while I was in the lift.

The title of this post is "Oh happy (Incubus) day!" (I can't seem to post something without mentioning them..) & that is caused by great news coming from them.

1. Brandon Boyd's first solo album "The Wild Trapeze" was released today. I ordered a hard copy - I realise this means more waiting, sad - but it's also available on iTunes (apparently only in the States at the moment, it'll take some more time in Europe - same for Amazon). It's possible to listen to snippets of all the songs on Amazon though!



2. Incubus head back to the studio. The release of the new album is scheduled for 2011. I seriously CANNOT wait. I haven't seen them live yet. It'll be a dream come true. I should start saving up for next year, I guess it'll be expensive...

Tomorrow is the FIFA worldcup semi-final Germany vs Spain (cheering on Germany, of course!) and on Sunday the whole thing will be over already. Time is running away these days. July is also my exam month - not too excited about that. It'll be hard but in three weeks it'll all be over.

That should be all for today.

Yes, there is happiness!

As dull as these weeks appear to me there are, thankfully, at least some happy moments!

The two most important ones were when Brandon Boyd posted the release date of his solo-album - July 6th, woohooo! - and, earlier this evening, his video for the first single "Runaway train" which can be found here. I'm in love all over again and simply thankful for this man's genius and music.

The third really happy moment was the new song of Ben Kenney, "Get Time", that is available for extensive listening over here.



And I try so hard to get out of the way of that runaway train.
Oh, how I do love the rain.


The more I try to separate, the better it feels to get right in the way.

Runaway train...